masochistic tendencies

i was chatting with a friend today. she seemed a bit anxious about something. i asked her to PM me on FB.

• J: Hahaha.. Nothing much.. Puyat lang super.. Mga 6am na ko nakauwi.. Tapos yun hour nap lang then nagising na agad ako.. Asar.. Partida na lasing pa ko ah.. Kaya antok na antok katawan ko pero utak ko ayaw papigil.. Hahaha 
• N: kasi may iniisip ka na naman.
• J: Meron actually.. Hahaha.. Lagi naman.. Masyado kasi analytic kaibigan mo.. Hahaha..
• N: parehas tayo. kaya nga tayo friends diba? :))
• J: Yes.. Hahaha.. Alam mo yun simple lang naman ang buhay yes or no, black or white pero bakit may maybe tapos may gray pa.. Pampagulo eh..
• N: pero i love all the gray areas din eh. ewan ko ba. ang weird natin...
• J: True.. Gray areas makes it challenging kasi.. Haha
• N: kaya nga eh. gustong gusto talaga natin ung pinahihirapan natin ang mga sarili natin... how weird are we diba? haha.
• J: Masochist tayo.. Hahaha.. Kidding.. We just want challenges.. Ayaw natin ng routine.. Hehehe

that last statement was epic. i'm just not sure if i really want to get hurt on purpose or i just want something challenging. am i over analyzing things again?